The Broke up

The Broke up

Finally!

Freedom!

Well...

I cant really totally be happy with that...

because I still miss the Happy times...

N apart from that Im happy that im free from the Pain n Suffering!!!

HALLELUJAH!!!

When did we Broke up anyway?

Well...

We Broke up last night(08/08/09..Saturday night)

Its one of my Fren's b'day at a Hotel u can say..

He dint actually be with me last night but at least I had fun with all...

I tried ta be with him but he always go away from me...

So after his bad performance

(I mean his attitude towards me,not his dance that night..His dance is a BOMB)

I decided that its time to let him go...

I broke up with him in the middle of the Partay...

It was Dirty dancin,Happy dancin and Shuffle time that time..

but then after I broke up with him..

The Party mode changed into Love songs and Sad songs to Slow the party down..

I was crying as no one can see me crying in the half dark party room.

I saw couples together,Frens dancin together...

I was so Jeolous..

I danced with a lot of ppl that night...

but not with him..

I requested for a Last dance with him,but he dont want..

I moved on and just danced with the rest of them...

I dint get pics of myself at that night..and im sry..

Mayb I can get some from some of mah frens and post it here^^!

(p.s.:I listened to this song "Huang Hun" when I create this blog) Shoutouts

I learnt somethin...

I just gotta move on my life...

Dont just get stucked in a place and move nowhere just bcause a Problem or just for a Guy...

I wanna thank the frens that comfort me last night when I was down..

I appreciate that very much..

And because of a Ham Chong fren I hav...XD

He helped me a lot..

A new girl that come 2 our school recently...

And awsome frens..

I freed myself finally...

Thx thar Buddies..^^!

And thx again 2 my frens who comforted me n always b thar when I was down...

Thats y I wanna treasure my frens forever n I'll never forget ya'll no matter what

Even if ya'll forgotten me..I still know that u are once my frens^^!

End

Am I wasting my Life?

Life's wasting?

I was thinking recently..

Am I wasting my Life?

I just saw something Shocking in front of my own eyes...

I thought that we're still couple because he never agreed to Break up with me..

Then till I saw his PM on his MSN...

He said "(insert bf's name here) is Single"

Is that to Piss me off or to show that he's playing me?

Does he really loves me I thought to myself...?

The same question pops into my mind over and over again...

I dont think so now...

Your my 1st and last thing on my mind on the first time I met you...

But now...

Its like your the 1st thing and the last problem in my mind...

I never thought that you're this kind of person when we first met...

Michael Jackson's(RIP) songs taught me a lot...

And in this Situation....

He would suggest to me that

This man is "Dangerous"

And I felt the same and agreed...

(p.s.:I was listening Dangerous when I was writing this blog)

Please read the lyrics below

Because it shows something too...

If it shows nothing,I would'nt hav post it in my Blog do'oh..

This is my version...~

"The way he came to the place

I knew right then and there

There was something different about this man

The way he moved

his hair,his face,his lines

Divinity in motion

As she stalled the room

I could feel the aura of his presence

Every head turned

Feeling passion and lust

The man was persuasive

The man I could not Trust

The man was bad

The man was Dangerous.

I never knew but I was walking the line

Come go with me I said I have no time

And don't you pretend we didn't talk on the phone

My feelings cried

He left me standing alone.

(Chorus)

He's so Dangerous

The man is so Dangerous

Take away my Money

Throw away my time

You can call me dear

But your no damn good for me.

He came at me in sections

With eyes of desire

I fell trapped into his web of sin

A touch,A kiss,A Whisper of Love

I was at point of no return

Deep in a heart of Passion's insanity

I felt taken by lust's

Strange inhumanity

This man was persuasive

This man I could not Trust

This man was bad

This man was Dangerous.

I cannot sleep alone tonight

My feelings left me here tonight

I cannot cope till its alright

You and your manipulation

You hurt my feelings

(End)

The Brokened heart...

Brokened Heart

Dang!!!

My heart's hurting every part of my body...

As if it's crushing my whole body into bits n bits of peices...

Im having a bad time recently..

It all started when i got a bf..(not b*tch fit)

Then our relationship was the Bomb...

I was so happy that I got a bf...

N he's a nice person when I met him...he said that he loves me a lot..n my heart falls for him at that time...

Then the 2nd week when we're together,I tried to love him back more but this time...

I felt that his feelings for me is fading...

Slowly but very fast...

Whenever I try to be with him...He keeps isolate himself away from me..

And keeps hanging out with other friends and especially girls...

I was so sad n hurt n I cried myself to sleep since then and woke up at 3am in the morning just to continue crying...

I cant take the Pressure!!!

I hope that this suffering will end n hope that everything will return to normal and he'll start loving me like the 1st time we're together.

I want those times back and be recorded in our memories...

N althought we fight or I get Jeolous...

My feelings for u is still in my heart...it remains forever in my heart untill my last breath in this world.

I really love you and hope that you'll love me back again...

If i dont love you,I dont even care to cry at all nor jeolous of u when you're talking with other girls...

U told me before that u want me to be yours always...

N now I want you to be mine always..

Shoutouts for my Man

Although we fight a lot or you're not here...My feelings for you is still in my heart n will always remains forever in my heart..

I lose both of my phones cuz of my mom took it away from me because I said the Truth that there is no Signal in a friend's house n I dint went back home that night.

I stayed over at Zilpah's house that night n cry because of our problems....

If you dont blive me..you could ask her whenever u want..n she'll admit everything I did last night!

I was Born Honest n will never say Lies and especially to you...

I said the Truth...but my mom said that its a LIE

She took it and I cried myself to sleep again on the afternoon.

Although I dint say that I love u face to face all the time...

But I really Love u...

All I wanna say is...

I still love you no matter what happens

And I'll continue to wait for you to change for the better.

N this song is what im listening when Im writing this Blog..

And this song is Dedicated for my only My Man.

Who's loving you-The Jackson Five(RIP MJ)

Wheeeeen I had you(had you)

I treated you baaaaad and wrong my dear

And girl(boy) since,you went away

(chorus)

Don't you know I sit around

with my head hanging down

and i wonder who's loving you

I,I,I,I should never,ever

ever made you cry

And girl(boy) since...since you've been gone.

(chorus)

(bridge)

Life without love,huh...

It's oh so lonely

I dont think,I dont think!I'm gonna make it

All my life,all my life yeah but lost to your only

Come on and take it girl..

Come on and take it!Because...

Allll....All I can do

All i can do since you've been gone is cry

And you and ever wonder and worry appealing in the head about what I do

(chorus)

(vocalise)

I,I,I,I wonder yeah..(who's loving you)..

And I will always the one loving you...

And possible..

If u stop loving me..

I'll try to carve away my feelings for you that is strongly carved n stained in my Heart...

End